i came out of kpop retirement

jimin dragged me down the bts pit and out of kpop retirement

i mean, can someone just reassure me im doing okay in life

i mean, i know i'm worthy of stuff, that i'm good, i'm smart, but like, am i? it's one thing to tell it to yourself, but it's another to have other people tell you that you're worth something. because we humans live off each other, so am i really worthy if no one tells me im worthy?

also known as: im stressed, i dont know why, im crying a lot and i just feel down

also known as: my job is shit and i wrote another long post on it but i'll hold off on posting it bc i dont want to be a downer

also known as: im lonely, im totally a sub, and oh god i think i'm exactly the sort of person to have an undiscovered highkey praise kink

edit: funny coincidence a lot of entj people say they're very sub lmao im laughing on the way to my grave

afa2016

afa2016 was nice

when things are bad, and i think my mother is going crazy

sometimes i am so, so sad. sometimes i think my mother is going crazy, and everyone else is going stupid. sometimes i am so, so, sad about the world that i just start crying. sometimes i just don't understand why such a nice, beautiful world full of good things could be so bad.

i'm a little apprehensive of posting this, because as much as i over disclose on this blog, this is something even more private. but i want someone to see.

are we sitting in fishbowls, guessing

happy november im sorry im a little emotionally unavailable.