EOY2013

*why are some of my pictures weird? Because I am an idiot and forgot to reset my white balance after covering prom night. So it was set on "compensate for flash". I edited some photos but was too lazy to edit everything.

So on sunday I went to eoy with Mike. And then I realised I had no idea where it was and Ian had to walk over to get the two of us. It was hot. And tiring. And sweaty. My feet are falling off.

I wore like a sweater thing. It was thin but still hella hot.

Was going to buy merchandise but yeah. Was distracted by cosplays.

wow so cute

very rad

Wanted to take more pictures of Inga but so awkward.

much inga!!!111!!!1!!111

i love inga !!11!11!1!!

wow so cute but was facing the wrong way and had no reflector so her face is kinda dark

wow air gear cosplay on skates wow respect my favourite character im sob

I literally chased after him for a shot because he was on skates omg. So embarrassing. I recognised this Kazu cosplay from that single Kogarasumaru patch on the back of his jacket. Such fangirl yes. He was very good on skates I saw him doing some tricks afterwards cause he was bored. V cool.

majestic

yes cute i like

wow sexy mmm

bike

other bike

cute genderbends

wow cute perry the platypus so cute wow!!111!!!!!

Look at him he's so cute I aadfldjffg;. So apparently this cute kid is a 99liner who's on tumblr. He found my eoy compilation post and reblogged it and said "wat". A complete kpop fanboy like I swear his blog is fulllll of kpop things. Such an adorable kid.

*edit 2014/08/27: mr perry the platypus (twitter/instagram) found me on instagram and twitter. his tumblr is apparently run by his sister who is a fanatic kpop fan haha the kid is adorable 

very ripped ichigo as in ripped ahahaha

Seriously wow abs. So fit. There were many muscular abs I didn't realise so many guys worked out here. I thought like most people were skinny studious and thin y'know.

such cute kou-chan

seeu baby

such punkrockhardcore!!11! (girl with blond highlights is on instagram)

cute kid

So this kid was in the shade eating his cotton candy and I was like "hi can I take a picture" so he put away his cotton candy but then I was like "it's okay you can just keep eating that" so he did and then I took a picture and the girls beside were "kya so cute". And then I told Mike this and she said "wow his first experience being fawned over by girls". Man I love Mike.

tiny angry heichou

So there was like this huge horde of people taking pictures of this tiny baby heichou and I did too. I wanted a single close-up but there were so many people I couldn't go in front so I walked off for a bit. Then I went back and there weren't many people so I asked the mom and then went right up to the kid.

Like you see how he's frowning???? He's not angry his mom was like "angry be angry"and then he frowned and then his mom was like "fight! fighting pose!" so he raised the blades wow ULTIMATE CUTENESS. Then I backed off quick after the shot because people were gathering again and I was blocking them.

*edit 2014/08/27: more of the kid in this post

sexy lady, very christmas

She had like a bunch of guys following her around cause she was so sexy. So she like just walked off after a while and I had to wait around for the shot lol I hope I didn't look creepy.

so proud of myself such artistic shot wow

sleeping mikasa our favourite baby mikasa

So I saw our favourite baby Mikasa (remember afa2013) and I asked her mom "can I take a picture" and the mom was like "yeah but she's sleeping?" but I was like "it's okay" so that's how I became a paparazzi who takes pictures of sleeping babies.

baka friends esp baka mike

wow hellooo mr abs let me touch you

I wanted to take many pictures of this guy with wonderful abs but I was like tired and shy so I kept glancing over and finally decided to ask for a picture I really hope he didn't think I was creepy.

so cute im sobs

this isn't even all of the free!

Wow don't even talk about how many Free! cosplays there were at eoy this year. It was Free! it was all Free! EVERYTHING WAS FREE!!!!!

such despair

fem!swimsuit!haru

fem!swimsuit!rei

more fem!swimsuit1rei she is so cute

So this Rei was like the cutest of all the fem!swimsuit!free! and everyone was there taking pictures of her. Like excuse her eyebrows she tried to shift it down but it didn't go too well but she's still so cute. She draws wonderful eyebrows. I tried to edit away the patch of concealer but failed I'm sorry I just gave up.

Her group went in the water in their swimsuits at about noon or something and it was so clever because the weather was so fucking hot but then after a while it became overcast and cold but people were still there snapping shots and she didn't know what to do I guess so she just kept standing there. I bet she got pretty fucking cold towards the end.

more kid cosplay

Okay that's it for the highlights I accidentally shot in raw format so I either process everything or I just don't and guess what I'm lazy.

yay it's december

Yoooooo I have things to talk about. Like, stuff happened. Boring stuff but significantly more interesting than me lying on my bed scrolling through tumblr. Which is what usually happens.

1: I covered my school's prom ?!?!??!?1??11?!1!1!?1?

Like after a series of misunderstandings and much confusion I joined the photography club and the first event I was assigned to cover was the prommm omfg. Like the seniors are all eighteen and glamourous wow cool hair cool dresses wow. 

Very intimidate. Such glam. I think they shone or something. Pretty sure I was blinded kind of.

I didn't bring my flash tho I'm sad my camera sucks. I'm busy editing (?!?! how edit what is edit) the photos and uploading them bc the photography club says so.

v blurry bc im scared to show the faces 

wow many people

2: I have been sick for two weeks !?!?!?!

I fell sick like two days after one ok rock and after two days of high fever my illness has subsided to a sniffle sniffle. Except not really because my nose is blocked all the time and I can't breathe. So at night I wake up two or three times at ungodly hours because my nose is blocked again and if I don't get up and do something about it I'll just suffocate in my sleep.

So today I'm going to drink nothing but green tea and try to flush out this bloody flu thing so that I can get some sleep and my eyebags can return to a somewhat normal colour.

3: I bought clothes sakjadlsdnvldsjfndfsljn

this is one thing (the sweater)

this is another thing (the shirt)

You don't understand this is a big thing for me because I like almost never go outside, much less buy anything more than food. I'm like a hermit crab emerging only for sustenance.

Also included in the clothes I bought was a single green jacket. You should congratulate me for buying something that isn't black.

4: I'm gonna get new spectacles I'm so excited wow 

New glasses new glasses woohoo.

They are cute.

I'm going to fetch them tomorrow.

Await my selfie.

selfie has arrived

more selfie

5: Am flying to Taiwan in twelve days

I must pack clothes and recover from flu. Must buy more tights. I love tights. Bc without tights I cannot wear short skirts okay. I don't have skinny long legs. People with skinny long legs can wear short skirts and their butt won't show because they're skinny their butt is small.

6: Am very very studiously ignoring my homework

That's it.

P.S. i took a photo of someone's camera that is better than mine with someone's lens which is better than mine. it was a wow cool lens with manual focus wow

ONE OK ROCK

so i went for one ok rock on 22 nov 2013 with mike and tamara

wow

i went to queue with mike in the morning but found a whole bunch of people already there. like they queued overnight wow dedication. mike and i arrived at ten in the morning fyi the concert starts at 7pm.

it was very hot and humid and boring. tamara came after a while.

the people who queued overnight were like those hardcore fanclub people i think and they passed down stuff for us to write on. they gave it to one ok rock afterwards.

i know i said we didn't arrive THAT early but we were still REALLY early. There was no way there was enough space in the notebook for everyone to write on, but the fact that when the notebook was passed down to us over half of it was still blank says a lot about how early we were.

i bought a one ok rock tour shirt (WILL UPLOAD LATER) and so now im broke so broke ouch

i changed into the shirt for the concert

anyway we ended up bringing too much stuff and there were no lockers so we kinda just abandoned our bags somewhere in the concert area. yes staff-san we're sorry.

we were in the really front area but not front enough to touch taka. much sad

concert was really good. people were pushing around and some people were angry but i was just like meh taka's singing i don't really care you can push me all you want im already in the front i can only get more front. but at one point i was literally slanted and stuck between two people i couldn't have fallen even if i had wanted to. i was literally suspended in the crowd

some person fainted and more than two or three people were handed to the guards over the barrier (i saw three but there were probably more) and the guards i guess were handing cups of water into the crowd in case more people were gonna faint

mike had a little panic attack thing and went to the medic's area pretty early on

i was jumping and screaming and waving my hand pretty much the whole time. cause i was short, so all i was breathing in was sweat and humidity. i rested my arm on some dude for a little while and didn't realise, but he didn't complain or say anything so it was pretty rad.

tamara said someone complained about her hair going in their faces so she tied it up haha. also she said a guy rested his arm on her head. are we all so short

my ears were kinda shot after the first song or so. the crowd was super enthusiastic and loud woww. afterwards i complained about people who screamed so loud that your ears did the thing, and tamara was like THAT'S YOU HELEN

much sweating ensued.

the band was so cute too wow toru and tomoya and ryota wow im blush

ryota had his shirt off by the second song or something. i don't even think i saw his shirt at all. toru was all cool during the whole thing and tomoya was banging at the drums like woaahh so cute so enthusiastic such good music mmmm

at one point taka kind of climbed the barrier and people screamed and surged towards him and started trying to touch him and stuff and he was a little bit woah. you could see it on his face. then security kicked in and taka was able to climb over the barrier and sing in relative peace loll.

during the encore you could hear his smile omfg. and during one line he had a cute little involuntary smile on his face omfg i wanted to die right there my life was fufilled.

the concert was beautiful and afterwards everyone was kinda dazed and shit.

one ok rock said that they'd definitely come back next year. we will see

front of shirt

back of shirt

sometimes

sometimes i just hate myself

hate everything

it's not depression

i just hate everything

i hate existing

why must i exist?

what do these experiences mean?

after sadness and happiness

what is there

except death?

i hate everything

i hate that this world exists

i hate that i am sentient

i hate that i hate things at all

i hate myself

i hate everything

is this pathetic?

am i pathetic?

is anyone laughing at my immaturity?

because that would be better than life passing by

i want to die

and i hate myself for it

sometimes i just stop caring

but i still hate myself

and there isn't even a reason

it's all a mess

and i just want it to stop

i don't know what i want
and i hate it

and then i make myself stop 

and i go on with life

i continue to die

im so angry at humans

i think a lot of people are disgusting, like not physically disgusting like gross, but mentally disgusting, like a bigot or a douche or someone who insists on doing things that you have repeatedly told them you hate just because. like. dear fucking god.

is it that fucking hard not to generalise

or to look at what you yourself are doing before scolding someone else, like don't fucking be a hypocrite. it's fucking disgusting. don't scold other people all sincerely angrily and then turn around and do the same thing yourself obliviously. like fuck, dear god, jesus fucking christ, that is the epitome of stupidity.

is it that hard to expect the same things from one child as you do another

is it that much to ask for

i am so fucking angry i hate a lot of people

do you even know how stupid it looks when you are racist to your own ethnicity?? you're like "omg it's the fucking chinese again they're terrible uncouth people" but hello???? NEWSFLASH??? YOU ARE FUCKING CHINESE?????????????????????

is it also that fucking hard to be calm and think rationally

like

fuck

so what if people eat cats and dogs, they're animals. same as cows, but you eat cows just fine. maybe it doesn't suit your palate, or maybe you find it unthinkable, but hello??? rationality please. it's not like they're humans. maybe someone else keeps cows as pets and we're the ones committing an atrocity.

is it that fucking hard to stop condemning people for things you don't half understand?????

is it that hard to be polite is it that hard to not intentionally offend people is it that hard to remember something i've been fucking telling you for seventeen years

i am angry with everyone i come into contact with sometimes

sometimes i am so sick of everyone i see

a lot of times i am sick of myself too but if i dwell on anything i'd become depressed again and not want to live and then like ?????? but how am i supposed to die

so i just rant a bit and try not to think of anything or feel anything because wow basically the only viable thing is to be shallow and mildly happy and that's how you stop wanting to die every single second.

ok i am super angry im going to find something to eat

AFA2013

(all pictures untouched lol bc i am a lazy bastard)
(photodump on  facebook lol)

This year I went to AFA with only Mike, because Tamara-tan had to work and Phoebe has to fly off to Myanmar, sighs.

this is a baka mike elise

We went on Friday, and saw Kaname and Miume and 217 and VIV.

Basically Kaname looked into my camera and was going to high-five me later but I was too awkward and pulled away and now I hate myself.

here is a kaname

here is another kaname

here is a smiley-ish kaname

And Miume is so fucking sexy live. And Miume made cute faces at me and I know she was directing it at me because I was literally the only one standing in that direction (ok im gomen im a sad fangirl).

look at them they are so cute

omg miume omg ahhhhh

Everyone was like "sashin ii desu ka?" and Nina was just like "ii yo ii yo" everywhere. She is crazy cute okay and was there just to have fun bc you could see it. We ran into them afterwards again and we waved and they waved back and smiled wow I am starstruck I am dead from fangirlism.

(No one realised they were Miume and 217 lol except for us. Like we literally walked into them.)

anyway this is viv and they make good music

Anyway the Starchild booth was having this "buy something from the Starchild booth and get a picture with Kaname and his signature on something" and Mike was all "prostitution". Like I'm serious she wouldn't stop hissing it in my ear every time we brought it up or walked past the Starchild booth.

Mike got a selfie with Kaname tho. And she had him sign her ticket.

so this is the ticket

On Sunday we bought the stage access and sat in front of the stage all day. You can have some Asia Regional Cosplay Championship pictures. Which I took secretly. Because they did't let anyone take photos. I am sad. I think because the glowing phone screens ruin things. But I used my DSLR and was very discreet and no one found out even though I sat at the second row.

wow dramatic

wow pretty dramatic (lol)

Anyway so afterwards there was some Starchild thing again and Kaname came out dressed as this character in Hoozuki no Reitetsu and was incredibly cutely in character the whole time. He was like "I want to bring you to hell with me" and stuffs and all the fangirls were like YESSSSSSS.

he frowned the whole day it must've been hard

oKAY so after that we had to clear off because they were getting the hall ready for Valvrave night and shit and Mike was super sad because she couldn't go and see TM Revolution her precious Onii-sama.

So we went out to take pictures of cosplayers but it was kinda late so the lighting was pretty shit and everything. I'm sad and gomen.

mike was v surprised to find out that this was an actual guy

yes very cute pair

very sexy yes i like

mmmmm but overexposed i think, i am sad

my hero

kami-sama i will never forget this

there were cute kids cosplaying too

i told you she was a kid

here's a baby mikasa i got her all to myself for a little while

Anyway AFA2013 was fun and stuffs. Here you may have a photo of my ticket.

ok bye

P.S. I have my tired selfies on instagram

P.P.S. I bought things of course but am too lazy to take pictures

P.P.P.S. My friend gave me a file that Kaname signed I am so happy thank you friend

also mike has lots of selfies that we took together but she hasn't given them to me i am sad