Anyway, the point is that I'm posting the stuffs up.
1.
Will you tell me a
story of roses,
Sleeping Beauties, and
sharp thorns?
Or will you speak
about mirrors,
Snow Whites, and
poison Apples?
Will you spin me
golden thread,
steal my stricken
heart from my chest,
watch as I fall and
shatter?
Will our story end
with my death,
or disappear with
yours?
2.
one step
is all it takes
breathe
close your eyes
lose yourself
to the memories
and cry
and breathe
and one step –
surrender
give up
move your feet
one step
away from everything
breathe
let go
end it all
just one step
(breathe)
one
(breathe)
last
(breathe)
step.
3.
Cry (this hopeless
place of endless hope)
Cry with tears that
are so silent, so subtle, that
they leave only dark patches on your pillow –
patches that dry by the next morning.
they leave only dark patches on your pillow –
patches that dry by the next morning.
Cry with tears that
are hot and painful, tears that
scald with their unintentional intensity
that comes from a choked-out wish.
scald with their unintentional intensity
that comes from a choked-out wish.
Cry with tears that
scream their frustration
to the world, loud and harsh and utterly
unforgiving; unrelenting in their fury,
they leave you shaking and resigned.
to the world, loud and harsh and utterly
unforgiving; unrelenting in their fury,
they leave you shaking and resigned.
Cry for each petty
injustice, each tiny criticism;
cry for every cutting denial, every stony
rejection; cry for all the dreams unfulfilled,
all the unexplainable hurt that never
goes away completely.
cry for every cutting denial, every stony
rejection; cry for all the dreams unfulfilled,
all the unexplainable hurt that never
goes away completely.
Cry so that the next
sunrise pains your eyes and
drives daggers into your mind which longs
only for the darkness of eternal oblivion.
drives daggers into your mind which longs
only for the darkness of eternal oblivion.
Cry so that all the
pent-up, stored-away feelings
can escape in a swirl of salt water and
pure emotion.
can escape in a swirl of salt water and
pure emotion.
Cry so that you can go
on lying, go on pretending,
go on smiling and nodding and saying that
“everything’s fine”.
go on smiling and nodding and saying that
“everything’s fine”.
There are more, but the formatting becomes screwed whenever I try to paste it over. Oh well. (To be honest I think I was slightly depressed when I tried to write things for the seminar thing. I mean, those aren't exactly things that I'd write normally. Or at least the third one isn't. I quite like writing about suicide.)
On another note, my teacher wrote in my report card that I apparently don't like to "conform to social norms". And that I should "conform to social norms". I'm going to scan it and preserve it forever. That's like the coolest thing any teacher's ever written to me. Usually they just put some textbook thing about me needing to concentrate more or, uh, things.
The first was written after rereading Poison Apple during a thunderstorm and sobbing like a baby afterwards. The second was written post-midnight on the same day. The third was crapped out some time later, I don't really remember.
The first was written after rereading Poison Apple during a thunderstorm and sobbing like a baby afterwards. The second was written post-midnight on the same day. The third was crapped out some time later, I don't really remember.
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