Blood Test~~~

Haemoglobin count just dropped from 11.5 to 9.6. Great, I need to see a specialist. Most probably. And definitely have more blood tests. I'm starting to feel like on of those people who blog about their illnesses so that others can find hope.

...I'm actually just a selfish bitch who wants to complain about her problems, so... *shrugs*

I didn't take the prick on the finger this time. Surprisingly, I didn't start bawling. Just hyperventilated and then watched the needle go into my skin.

Pretty fucking scary.

...Do you know how awkward it is to move around with a 'wound' on the inside of your elbow? Ugh. This sucks so much. (Oh, and Taemin's getting hotter and hotter, but that's just cause I went on Tumblr just now)

I can't move around properly. I can't exert any force with my left arm because I'm so paranoid about blood coming out and me hurting my vein and the entire part becoming swollen and blue-black - which it does, if you don't press it properly during the first few minutes after the nurse takes out the needle. My mom had a shitty nurse once - my brother, c-section, needles, long story short - and it was real. Fucking. Scary.

Probably why I was scared of blood tests in the first place, since apparently I had some pretty bad asthma when I was a kid and needed intravenous stuff all the time. According to my mom, she'd give me injections at home (she was a nurse, remember) and I'd just sit quietly and watch.

The only thing that changed from then to now is that
a) I have no more asthma
b) I have a mortal fear and people sticking needles in me. And then drawing out blood.

Haven't taken the plaster off yet, but pretty sure it's not swollen and blue-black.

So yes, I'm like anaemic. I need iron supplements... haven't taken any yet, but really hope that they taste good. Which is unlikely, but hey.

GDI, I only wanted a free ticket out of too much physical exertion. Maybe this is like karma. For, idk, taking advantage of people and being too selfish and griping about every single thing and ... uhh ... cheating and lying?

Whateverrrrrr.

I'm going back to tumblr. They'd better have some good yaoi for me. (And they don't have a fuck yeah Toushiro at ALL. As in Hitsugaya Toushiro. But they have a fuckyeahichimarugin ^^ I luurrve him. Along with Toushi, of course. Toushiiiiiii)

So I talk too much.