23 November 2018

stress

so my stress is either simmering 10% to 20%, or full blown at 100%. there is no in between.

at 100%, my hair, eyelashes, and eyebrows literally fall out. i have crazy tension headaches, and also an incessant need to nap. my heartbeat is apparently abnormally fast too, and i feel on the verge of fainting or screaming all the time. on top of that, if the stress gets too bad, i literally start having flu symptoms. i am definitely not actually ill, because every single problem clears up the moment the thing causing me stress is removed.

do i have an extreme stress reaction? who knows. but i'm pretty sure that every time i go to 100% stress level, my lifespan gets shortened.