24 June 2011
acane_madder - Rollin' Girl
This is something, that, if you miss, you will regret, because, my dear, I will pull your ear over and force you to listen on repeat.
Britney Spears - I Wanna Go
OMFG this song is so much better than 'Hold it Against Me'.
Not to be hating on her, but she still needs to lose some weight. Still, Britney is awesome.
23 June 2011
Clear and Nero - Butterfly
Lyrics: http://eternalsnow.dreamwidth.org/42752.html
I'm gonna make love to you wanna get laid
FFFUCCCKKK I can just go die now my life is complete.
I got the 'get laid' part, and it prompted me to go look for the lyrics - ohgod love confessions I can't think now I SHIP I SHIP I SHIP cannot think fuckk.
Okay, for me, butterflies = hot gay sex. Mind polluted, forever.
I'm gonna make love to you wanna get laid
FUCKK.
Hot gay sex.
FUCKK.
Life is complete, I'm telling you. I keep doing things like pinching my nose and biting my lip and slapping my face. Only just recovered enough to think coherently. I was hyperventilating.
Taemin
I think all of his fans - both male and female - will share a desperate yet hopeless desire to become that lucky floor...
Fuck I'm getting dizzy. I swear he does those things to kill off his scary-as-fuck fans or something... excuse, I need tissues, the blood is dripping from my nose.
Yes, I am a scary-as-fuck fangirl, and if I saw him IRL... well, I have no idea what I'll do, I'll just be overwhelmed by his awesomeness and stare and giggle stupidly or something.
Jung Juri and Kikwang - I Need A Boy (Parody)
It's a parody of Taeyang's 'I Need A Girl'.
And all the girls are fangirling - hugging each other, squealing, covering their mouths etc. Classic symptoms, my dear, Kikwang is too sexy.
Orihime
I don't like her. As in, I'd be happy if she disappeared.
To clear up one thing: no, not boob-envy. I don't envy people with astonishingly large bosoms.
She's just a weak character - typically, the kind-hearted female who has really good intentions. How is that a Mary Sue? Basically because in reality, few are as nice as her in real life - Ichigo's sister Yuzu I can believe, but not at Orihime's age. Heyy look none of my friends are like her. They're either more selfish or more bitchy, or mostly both. Orihime is entirely non-believable.
(I love my friends. Because I'm probably more selfish and bitchy than them lol.)
Another thing is that she has those powers, but they're too weak to be substantial. When you put Ichigo next to her - no need for any comparison. You can argue that her powers were brought about by Ichigo's reiastsu so of course it's weaker - hello? What's the point of developing a character with minor powers...
Oh hell, wait. Soten Kisshun, rejection of reality? That's amazing, that really is. You mean she can do whatever she wants with that?
How fucking Sue-ish is that?
But anyway, why am I hating on her when there's Ichigo? Forever getting more powerful, forever defeating the big bad guys... Ichigo's tolerated because he's human. As in, he's brash and crude and perverted and violent - real life, anyone? But also very kind-hearted, although as the macho man of the series he can't be given the ability to talk about his feelings... hurhur.
His hero-complex is because of his mother's death, his two younger siblings, and a deep dark desire to stop seeing people get hurt because... oh noes, spiraling into fanfiction here.
The personal part is here: Orihime annoys me because she tends to say things - "Oh XXX don't do that! Ichigo will be hurt/injured/mortally wounded/or die!" and look at the character... I fucking hate people who just stand and stare while their good intentions fly over the head of someone who doesn't give a fuck about what they say... If you want them to stop, fucking go over and pull them away. If you don't go over and fucking pull them off, then you'd better be happy that the person is getting tortured. Because in my book, once you commit the fatal error of screaming out your good intentions while having the ability to stop it but standing by because of... something...? Then I'll be the one happy girl who laughs at your dead body.
And Ichigo is different because he rushes into action - not that it's good, but doing is better than using your stupid mouth and sitting on your stupid butt. Orihime, fuck a horse.
The typical helpless female and the typical all-powerful male... guess what, I don't like helpless females. I like Karin. I love Karin. I am Karin's fangirl.
I like Rukia. I love Rukia. I am Rukia's fangirl.
I fucking love Matsumoto too, how about that?
To clear up one thing: no, not boob-envy. I don't envy people with astonishingly large bosoms.
She's just a weak character - typically, the kind-hearted female who has really good intentions. How is that a Mary Sue? Basically because in reality, few are as nice as her in real life - Ichigo's sister Yuzu I can believe, but not at Orihime's age. Heyy look none of my friends are like her. They're either more selfish or more bitchy, or mostly both. Orihime is entirely non-believable.
(I love my friends. Because I'm probably more selfish and bitchy than them lol.)
Another thing is that she has those powers, but they're too weak to be substantial. When you put Ichigo next to her - no need for any comparison. You can argue that her powers were brought about by Ichigo's reiastsu so of course it's weaker - hello? What's the point of developing a character with minor powers...
Oh hell, wait. Soten Kisshun, rejection of reality? That's amazing, that really is. You mean she can do whatever she wants with that?
How fucking Sue-ish is that?
But anyway, why am I hating on her when there's Ichigo? Forever getting more powerful, forever defeating the big bad guys... Ichigo's tolerated because he's human. As in, he's brash and crude and perverted and violent - real life, anyone? But also very kind-hearted, although as the macho man of the series he can't be given the ability to talk about his feelings... hurhur.
His hero-complex is because of his mother's death, his two younger siblings, and a deep dark desire to stop seeing people get hurt because... oh noes, spiraling into fanfiction here.
The personal part is here: Orihime annoys me because she tends to say things - "Oh XXX don't do that! Ichigo will be hurt/injured/mortally wounded/or die!" and look at the character... I fucking hate people who just stand and stare while their good intentions fly over the head of someone who doesn't give a fuck about what they say... If you want them to stop, fucking go over and pull them away. If you don't go over and fucking pull them off, then you'd better be happy that the person is getting tortured. Because in my book, once you commit the fatal error of screaming out your good intentions while having the ability to stop it but standing by because of... something...? Then I'll be the one happy girl who laughs at your dead body.
And Ichigo is different because he rushes into action - not that it's good, but doing is better than using your stupid mouth and sitting on your stupid butt. Orihime, fuck a horse.
The typical helpless female and the typical all-powerful male... guess what, I don't like helpless females. I like Karin. I love Karin. I am Karin's fangirl.
I like Rukia. I love Rukia. I am Rukia's fangirl.
I fucking love Matsumoto too, how about that?
22 June 2011
Westboro Baptist Church
http://shanghaiist.com/2008/05/16/westboro-thank-god-for-earthquake.php
This is personal.
I'm Chinese and even though I've changed my nationality, I don't take kindly to people saying bullshit about China. Because my stand on the WBC is that they're dangerous, delusional, and hateful people who run around wielding the Bible as a shield from the responsibility of stirring up hatred and sadness.
They're distasteful. To say the very least.
I'm hoping that one day, everything that they've done to others will come back to them -it's what they deserve. I'm not Christian, but I can see that they're very selective about the Bible and God, whom they /claim/ to believe in... honestly, I don't understand how anyone could be so selective.
My personal opinion: 去死吧。这个世界不需要你这种可恶的人。
This is personal.
I'm Chinese and even though I've changed my nationality, I don't take kindly to people saying bullshit about China. Because my stand on the WBC is that they're dangerous, delusional, and hateful people who run around wielding the Bible as a shield from the responsibility of stirring up hatred and sadness.
They're distasteful. To say the very least.
I'm hoping that one day, everything that they've done to others will come back to them -it's what they deserve. I'm not Christian, but I can see that they're very selective about the Bible and God, whom they /claim/ to believe in... honestly, I don't understand how anyone could be so selective.
My personal opinion: 去死吧。这个世界不需要你这种可恶的人。
I Am Not A Violent Person
But if I had been there in the room when he was talking, I think I would most probably go up and kick him somewhere painful. He's disgusting.
Homosexuality
This fucker in the video needs a brain check.
Homosexuality is perfectly fine and it's people like him who taunt the gay kids and make them feel horrible. If those people didn't exist, then kids wouldn't be committing suicide because of their orientation. They kill themselves because they're gay. It doesn't even make sense.
He's either spouting illogical statements to make money, or he's an idiot who truly believes in the crap that spills out of his mouth... whichever way, he's looking incredibly stupid at this moment.
Sometimes I feel like going to a gay camp just to piss people off. "Lol no I'm not taking the pledge because I feel that being homosexuality is as okay as being straight." Their expression would be priceless.
Their story makes me tear up.
If a landlord decides not to rent to a fat person, what would you think? What if a landlord decides not to rent to homosexuals? Depends on whether they're running it as a business or a personal thing... you don't see convenience stores refusing to sell a drink to gays.
"Sympathy must be extended to those who struggle with unwanted same-sex attractions, and every effort should be made to assist such persons to overcome those attractions, as many already have. "
From http://www.frc.org/human-sexuality#homosexuality
So what if they don't struggle with it? If they're happy being homosexual? The idea of 'struggling' was biased from the start.
http://ashtonelijah.wordpress.com/2011/06/06/youth-minister-damon-thompson-queers-commit-suicide-because-of-gay-demons-not-bullies/
I deplore people with mindsets like Damon Thompson.
http://ashtonelijah.wordpress.com/2011/06/14/wipeout-how-the-ramps-anti-gay-ministry-changed-my-life/
Scroll down to the comments, where a Anonymous says 'God is love' along with 'Homosexuality... is a perversion of the devil.' Where's your love now? I don't believe in god, but you're shaming him as one of his believers. If 'God is love' then God loves homosexuals along with homophobes like you.
...
Okay wait, I'm appalled.
http://theramp.org/blog/?p=227
"COMMENTS ARE CLOSED"
You fucker. My opinion of you has just gone down from nonexistent to less than that.
Taemin - River Flows in You
You know, if he played this to me I'd kind of die of happiness (but then revive so that I can glomp him or something) YES OKAY I AM DELUSIONAL.
21 June 2011
Sunny Hill - Midnight Circus MV + DGM fanfic link ^^
PIECE OF ART. This is what I would fap to, if I ever did. Oh god. I can't imagine a rookie group doing this - experience shows here, yo. I watched it again and, dammit, it'd turn people lesbian XD
Still stoning from the pure epicness here...
On another note it'd fit perfectly with this DGM fanfiction - lemme dig out the link. http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4357478/1/Circus_of_Night
Awesomeness. Yaoi slash with music... okay I'll just shut up and bang my head on a wall now, shall I? I believe I shall. Still can't stop fangirling - second time hearing the song and I'm already singing along.
This is the very sexy sneak peek... seriously good fanfic material, now, if I could just turn her into a boy, the plot will work out fine. Yes, I'll go smash my head in a wall again, thanks.
/EDIT:/
This is the teaser with IU in it.
20 June 2011
Len Fangirls
"Len fans are also labeled amongst the most scary Vocaloid fans on Youtube within Vocaloid fan communities owed to the obsessive and "disturbing" nature often displayed by some Youtube comments."
http://vocaloid.wikia.com/wiki/Kagamine_Rin/Len
This Len fangirl's life is complete.
http://vocaloid.wikia.com/wiki/Kagamine_Rin/Len
This Len fangirl's life is complete.
19 June 2011
Quiz Result
http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/result/19059059/8133751/
You're dark and quiet. Most of the world pretends you don't exist, just because you're different. Accept that you're not always gonna be liked and move on. Your group loves you and your quirks, or you wouldn't be in the group in the first place. You are a leader of the group because you're blunt and logical, if not a little depressing. You manage to be friends with them all because you know that people are flawed. Try to cheer up a little bit.
STFU I am not depressing. *In denial* I do not need to cheer up. *Still in denial*
http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/result/17830856/7897298/
Phew hoo, nice going. You're the loving, and wacko EMO TEAM. Oh yeahz. That's not a bad thing because you cute-as-a-fucking-button, and smarticles. You don't have to cut to join this boat, all you have to do is be yourself. And sensitive. :)
........What has happened to my life.
http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/result/17557628/7837495/
you have more of the dark mysterious personality, so thats the type of guy you will most likely attract!
NOT FUNNY. ANYMORE. THIS IS BECAUSE MY FAVOURITE COLOUR IS BLACK, ISN'T IT.
http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/result/17558457/7837736/
HOMG Ulquiorra Schiffer FINALLY ONE GOOD THING.
Okayyyy... too many of the quizes say I'm depressing and emo and goth and depressing and want to take over the world. I'll settle for taking over the world, but not depressing. Bye, quizes. Go before I slaughter you.
You're dark and quiet. Most of the world pretends you don't exist, just because you're different. Accept that you're not always gonna be liked and move on. Your group loves you and your quirks, or you wouldn't be in the group in the first place. You are a leader of the group because you're blunt and logical, if not a little depressing. You manage to be friends with them all because you know that people are flawed. Try to cheer up a little bit.
STFU I am not depressing. *In denial* I do not need to cheer up. *Still in denial*
http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/result/17830856/7897298/
Phew hoo, nice going. You're the loving, and wacko EMO TEAM. Oh yeahz. That's not a bad thing because you cute-as-a-fucking-button, and smarticles. You don't have to cut to join this boat, all you have to do is be yourself. And sensitive. :)
........What has happened to my life.
http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/result/17557628/7837495/
you have more of the dark mysterious personality, so thats the type of guy you will most likely attract!
NOT FUNNY. ANYMORE. THIS IS BECAUSE MY FAVOURITE COLOUR IS BLACK, ISN'T IT.
http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/result/17558457/7837736/
HOMG Ulquiorra Schiffer FINALLY ONE GOOD THING.
Okayyyy... too many of the quizes say I'm depressing and emo and goth and depressing and want to take over the world. I'll settle for taking over the world, but not depressing. Bye, quizes. Go before I slaughter you.
Hane no Zaia
She makes me more sadistic than I already am, and I can't make up my mind whether that's good or bad.
Her fanfiction.net
Her DeviantArt
Her Live Journal
I have stalked Awesomeness.
....The sense of accomplishment is suspiciously missing.
Her fanfiction.net
Her DeviantArt
Her Live Journal
I have stalked Awesomeness.
....The sense of accomplishment is suspiciously missing.
[Enn] Magnet English Lyrics/Fandub
This is by far the best english translation of magnet I've found. I am now going to conveniently forget that there are other translated versions and stick to this one.
The lyrics are on LJ too, link: http://vocaloid.livejournal.com/366031.html
[Enn] is the one singing and the one who translated the lyrics. Both the Youtube and the LJ are hers.
Frankly her singing is a bit shaky, but I suppose it's actually okay compared to the others... the *shudders* others....>.> DNW. I've come across a lot of crap while searching for Vocaloid things.
Mocha and Poofheads
Good news first. I made mocha. Since 'mocha' is defined as a coffee-flavoured beverage with milk and chocolate, I made instant coffee, hot (dark) chocolate, put them together and added milk. There was more chocolate than coffee, and half of the entire thing is milk. It tastes like heaven. Or hell, depending on your preference.
Now, onto poofheads. *Sips mocha*
As you've guessed, it's an insult. *Sips mocha*
Well anyway, it begins like this: I was browsing through fanfiction.net's 'Just in' section, until I saw this piece of something submitted under the 'Harry Potter' category. Entitled "magical cat gurl", and with a total of 76 words, it was a fanfiction about "a cat gurl who goes to hartwarts and meets ppl!" I am not kidding.
hi guys! :D in case u didnt read my profile im not goffik anymore (go tokyo mew mew!). anywayz dis is a new story im thinkin of bout a cat gurl who gos to hogwartz and mets all sortz of ppl! crazy adventures huh?
For her sake, I pray that this Raven person is a magical being with the ability to magically magic the spelling errors that mar this magically magical piece of magical fanfiction.
Now, I am doing this because something other than this magical piece of magic happened. I submitted a review, "I don't understand you, I honestly don't. How old are you again?"
And received the reply, "im eighteen :D glad you show interest in mu story. dont worry raven will profread it to make sure ther are no errors!!!!!"
I hope that she understood my point, and was just being nice. Not going to link. That would direct flamers to her, and I don't want that in addition to my long list of crimes. But I suppose it'd be quite easy to find her... Shoo, go Google. Not about to commit another crime right now.
TBH I don't believe her age.
..........There's something called 'spell check'.
/EDIT:/ I have been informed that she's responsible for the crap called My Immortal, and her account has been hacked. Yay. Or not.
Now, onto poofheads. *Sips mocha*
As you've guessed, it's an insult. *Sips mocha*
Well anyway, it begins like this: I was browsing through fanfiction.net's 'Just in' section, until I saw this piece of something submitted under the 'Harry Potter' category. Entitled "magical cat gurl", and with a total of 76 words, it was a fanfiction about "a cat gurl who goes to hartwarts and meets ppl!" I am not kidding.
hi guys! :D in case u didnt read my profile im not goffik anymore (go tokyo mew mew!). anywayz dis is a new story im thinkin of bout a cat gurl who gos to hogwartz and mets all sortz of ppl! crazy adventures huh?
coming soon! fanfiction dont tear dis down the story it will be out soon! by da way my grammer has improved hasnt it? ravens gonna profread this still.
For her sake, I pray that this Raven person is a magical being with the ability to magically magic the spelling errors that mar this magically magical piece of magical fanfiction.
Now, I am doing this because something other than this magical piece of magic happened. I submitted a review, "I don't understand you, I honestly don't. How old are you again?"
And received the reply, "im eighteen :D glad you show interest in mu story. dont worry raven will profread it to make sure ther are no errors!!!!!"
I hope that she understood my point, and was just being nice. Not going to link. That would direct flamers to her, and I don't want that in addition to my long list of crimes. But I suppose it'd be quite easy to find her... Shoo, go Google. Not about to commit another crime right now.
TBH I don't believe her age.
..........There's something called 'spell check'.
/EDIT:/ I have been informed that she's responsible for the crap called My Immortal, and her account has been hacked. Yay. Or not.
18 June 2011
FUKUMEN
Meltdown by Kagamine Rin
Black Rock Shooter by Hatsune Miku
This guy has my never-ending love. And he deserves more than fangasms.
DL LINK Matryoshka Chorus of Choruses
You've never heard 'awesome' before this. Download link is in the description of the video.
17 June 2011
DL LINK Clear and Nero - Cantarella
Been stalking niconico singers these days. Plenty of Awesome all around, but this is just... hot. So hot.
/EDIT/: There's silence all the way back... DL link without the silence.
/EDIT/: /EDIT/: I know that they have an album, and Cantarella is on the album, but trust me, this is sexier.
16 June 2011
'Curing' Homosexuality
/EDIT:/ I was very angry when I wrote this. So angry, in fact, that I wasn't thinking. I'm not sure that this post has a point.
On Twitlonger:
Lelouch is sent to a camp to cure his gayness by his parents. He's contrary, and not repentant at all. He seduces Suzaku, a ... counselor? at the camp and they have hot gay sex.
Anyway, back on topic. Camps that are supposed to 'cure' gayness. A simple search on Google sent me towards several articles. One here:
View as several pageshttp://www.alternet.org/story/146557/
Or as one entire page: http://www.alternet.org/story/146557/?page=entire
This guys goes undercover. Work safe. Unless your boss (or parent-s-) is (are) a homophobe(s)... in which case, don't come near this blog.
Let's now pretend that I'm a guy, who's been forced to attend the camp. I'll put my thoughts up. It's just easier this way. I'll take guidance from the above article. My smart-aleck answers and sarcasm is bolded... you'll find a lot of bolded things.
Most camps make people sign confidentiality agreements.
Why do I even have to sign them? Is there something I'm not supposed to tell people outside? And why can't I tell them anyway? What so wrong about what you're going to make me do that I can't tell others? You tell me that, quote, " techniques hidden from public scrutiny" ... again, if your real motive is to be a good christian and help, then why not share your techniques. Okay. Public scrutiny? Bad choice of words.
Confidentiality agreements. Really. So I can't tell people what you did to me? What if I end up depressed and suicidal because of you? Confidentiality agreement's gonna ensure you never get shut down, bastard, even though you might drive people to their deaths.
Assume I sign it.
"Per the instructions PCC emailed us before the weekend, I collect everyone’s cellphones and close them up in the glove compartment. There will be no contact with the outside world until Sunday afternoon."
You fucker. You're going to brainwash people. Outside stimuli will just spoil your little plan, eh?
Assume I surrender my phone, unwillingly.
"After check-in, a staffer asks me to follow him. We circle around the back of a cabin. He motions me toward a man standing fifty feet away, dressed in all black and grasping a gnarled wooden staff. I slowly walk towards the man in black.
On Twitlonger:
On Thursday 16th June 2011, @Raspberrih said:
Just read an article about christian camps attempting to convert gays in 'normal' straight guys. People who organized that camp = narrow-minded christians who judge others. Even thought their holy bible tells them not to...
Everyone's created in the image of God (bible) thus, so are gays.
(Read: God created gays, just like he created straight people.)
Those people who organized the camp are saying that someone whom God created is wrong. God doesn't make mistakes (bible).
(Read: gays are not mistakes.)
So... God just put some narrow-minded homophobes in this world... and apparently that isn't a mistake?
(Read: does not make sense)
This tells us that christian camps that attempt to 'cure' homosexuality is bullshitting big time, and that they seem to be christians but are actually interpreting the bible their own twisted way (honestly, what other way to interpret is there?) and doing illogical things.
Also tells us that there's something fundamentally wrong with the christian God. I should know. I grew up a christian.
-END-
I am so disgusted.
Actually, I admit that I researched into this because I read a fanfic: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7055994/1/ very awesome, but contains yaoi. Not work safe, or parents safe.
Anyway, back on topic. Camps that are supposed to 'cure' gayness. A simple search on Google sent me towards several articles. One here:
View as several pageshttp://www.alternet.org/story/146557/
Or as one entire page: http://www.alternet.org/story/146557/?page=entire
This guys goes undercover. Work safe. Unless your boss (or parent-s-) is (are) a homophobe(s)... in which case, don't come near this blog.
Let's now pretend that I'm a guy, who's been forced to attend the camp. I'll put my thoughts up. It's just easier this way. I'll take guidance from the above article. My smart-aleck answers and sarcasm is bolded... you'll find a lot of bolded things.
Most camps make people sign confidentiality agreements.
Why do I even have to sign them? Is there something I'm not supposed to tell people outside? And why can't I tell them anyway? What so wrong about what you're going to make me do that I can't tell others? You tell me that, quote, " techniques hidden from public scrutiny" ... again, if your real motive is to be a good christian and help, then why not share your techniques. Okay. Public scrutiny? Bad choice of words.
Confidentiality agreements. Really. So I can't tell people what you did to me? What if I end up depressed and suicidal because of you? Confidentiality agreement's gonna ensure you never get shut down, bastard, even though you might drive people to their deaths.
Assume I sign it.
"Per the instructions PCC emailed us before the weekend, I collect everyone’s cellphones and close them up in the glove compartment. There will be no contact with the outside world until Sunday afternoon."
You fucker. You're going to brainwash people. Outside stimuli will just spoil your little plan, eh?
Assume I surrender my phone, unwillingly.
"After check-in, a staffer asks me to follow him. We circle around the back of a cabin. He motions me toward a man standing fifty feet away, dressed in all black and grasping a gnarled wooden staff. I slowly walk towards the man in black.
I stop a couple of feet away from him. He eyeballs me, shows no emotion, and stays silent for several uncomfortable moments.
Finally, he takes in a deep breath and asks, “What is a man?”"
More brainwashing. What the hell is the deal with guys in black and non-subtle, non-verbal threats? Yes, a man is a human being who has a penis and no vagina, thanks so much. I came here for biology lessons, yes I did."What makes a man? How do you know you’re a man? Why are you here?""
His penis and balls. Because I have a penis and balls. Because I was forced.
"PCC made it clear before the weekend that JiM staff “are not professional therapists or counselors, or are not working as professional therapists or counselors in the course of the weekend.”"
So I came here to have people who aren't professionals do things to me that requires a confidentiality agreement.
"Early in the evening, staff members reenact the classic children’s tale, "Jack and the Beanstalk," with different staff members playing the different roles.
The story, a narrator explains, is loaded with coming-of-age symbolism. Fatherless Jack has lived in the safe, feminine world under his mother’s care; the old man in the village represents ancient tribal elders who help boys transition into manhood; the seeds given to Jack represent both his sperm and the masculine potential for creation. Like most women, Jack’s mother doesn’t understand the importance of the seeds, so she chucks them out the window. The reenactment ends with Jack sent to bed without supper. After all, he screwed up his masculine duty to provide food for his family."
Great stuff, people, you ruined my childhood. I grew up thinking that Jack's this guy who has fantastic adventures and got lucky, now you tell me the seeds for the beanstalk represent his "sperm". Really now. "Like most women"? Sexist much? Listen to yourself. And this helps people become straight in what way?
"In another exercise, one Journeyer stands at the center of the room while a Guide asks other Journeyers to raise their hands and give examples of mental blocks or excuses that keep us from effecting real change away from homosexuality. After each man gives an example — “rationalization,” “justification,” “intellectualizing” — he stands up and presses against the other standing in the middle of the room. Soon it’s a mass of male bodies smushed together."
Male bodies. Smushed together. Says it all, don't you think? Still not seeing the point of this.
"In one of the final exercises for the night, we form another circle in the middle of the room. (We end up doing this circle thing a lot.) Staff members pass out black cloth blindfolds, which we tie around our eyes. With the blindfolds in place, staff men squeak their sneakers and bounce basketballs on the hard floor, recreating the sounds from a busy high-school gym class.
They yell out the the kind of shit-talk typical of high-school kids:
“C’mon, take the shot!”
“You suck!”
“How did you miss that?”
“Why are you always picked last?”
“Okay, let’s hit the showers.”"
Not. Seeing. Point. If you were traumatized by that when you were young, then get over it. If you haven't gotten over it, this is not going to help. Revisitng your trauma just like that is not. Going. To. Help. Plus, you guys aren't even professionals... but you're trying to do a professional's job. Hey look. Professionals say gay is gay. You're now attempting something that professionals can't do. Good luck.
"The exercise has awoken some terrible adolescent memories. With tears streaming down some of our faces, we follow staff members into an adjoining, smaller, carpeted room."
Yes, thanks. People crying their eyes out is a good thing.
"First: Side-by-side, where two men sit shoulder-to-shoulder, facing the same direction, their legs outstretched in front of them. The man giving the Healing Touch puts one arm around the receiver.
Second: The Cohen Hold, named after “certified sexual re-orientation coach” and Healing Touch pioneer Richard Cohen. For this position, the receiver sits between the legs of the giver, their chests perpendicular, the receiver’s head resting on the giver’s shoulder. The giver encircles his arms around the receiver.
Third: The Motorcycle. The receiver again sits between the legs of the giver; this time, the receiver leans his back up against the chest of the giver. Again, the giver wraps his arms around the receiver.
The idea behind Healing Touch is to recreate the father-son bond that apparently we missed as children. In this twisted, neo-Freudian
theory on the cause of homosexuality, men who didn’t get appropriate touch from their fathers sexualize their need for a “healthy” non-sexual masculine connection. Healing Touch techniques recreate a loving, father-son bond, and are completely non-sexual."
theory on the cause of homosexuality, men who didn’t get appropriate touch from their fathers sexualize their need for a “healthy” non-sexual masculine connection. Healing Touch techniques recreate a loving, father-son bond, and are completely non-sexual."
So... if I had a nice, well-adjusted childhood, this would... what, exactly?
Assume I had a good childhood and appropriate touch from my dad. Which I did. He let me sit on his shoulders, and I wasn't very light when I was a kid.
The writer chooses the motorcycle. "The Guide whispers in my ear how I used to be the Golden Child, how everything was wonderful before someone hurt me, how I put up walls to protect myself, and now it was time for those walls to come down."
Just. Sorry, no one hurt me, so I didn't need 'em walls. And besides, by now you're kind of insulting me, implying that I've been hurt by something or someone in the past. You're assuming things. And then you're assuming that you're correct about those assumed things. Excuse me, but would it kill to ask before you start talking about things I don't identify with?
Here the writer says he felt the erection of the guide who's behind him.
Guide.
A guide.
"Jason, a baby-faced, barely-out-of-college guy, struggles for a minute to come up with something. Then, finally, he half-heartedly recounts the time he tried to get his dad’s attention. But Dad rebuffed him, saying that he was busy reading the newspaper."
Okay, normal. My dad does worse. But then he's human, he just wants to read his paper. Maybe he's in the middle of something important. I read a lot. And I get very pissed when people disturb me. So this is an entirely normal scenarios that happen everywhere.
"The Guide fills in the blanks. “He was telling you that the newspaper was more important than his son.”"
Really. So what, right now my blog is more important than my family. I'd push them away and turn them down if they wanted me to go make coffee with them or just chat. This guide here is... problematic. Ever consider that the guide has repressed trauma from his own past and is projecting everything on others? Hey, just saying.
They act it out. A lot of times. Guide says, "“You were a boy who needed his father’s attention. And do you know what you got instead?” asks the Guide. “He told you you were worthless. He didn’t have time for you.”"
Oh, god. You, my dear, have just made a boy's simple memory turn into a living nightmare. 'Busy' and 'worthless' does not equate. Putting words into the mouth of someone who isn't here to defend himself isn't very honorable either.
People are asked to think about what they could've done, back then, to improve the memory or make things turn out another way. Most involved people dragging the characters (a bully or something, played by a guide) out. "But for Jason and his newspaper-reading father, the solution took a violent approach. First, the Guide playing Jason’s father rises from the metal chair to stand in front of him, repeating the lines about Jason being worthless. Next, Jason is handed a baseball bat and told to kneel on the floor. A punching bag is placed between him and the father.
“What you need is a new father,” the Guide says, moving another Guide to stand behind the first. “But this old father is standing in your way. You need to get rid of him.”"
Sorry. I think I hate you guys now. Telling someone to kill or 'get rid' or another person (even though it's from a memory) ... Instigation of murder, anyone? This sounds serious. I bring up the confidentiality agreement again. By now I think everyone understands the need for it.
Anyway, assume that it's in a spiritual sense. (Unconvinced)
"Jason beating his dad to death in effigy"
"Jason seems like such a nice kid, the kind of guy whose biggest regret was the day he forgot to do his algebra homework."
Good way to turn a nice kid into a violent person who's fine with beating up his old man. Good way to make a nice kid want to beat up his old man.
After Jason supposedly 'kills' the old dad, the 'new' one embraces him and tells him he loves him.
Okay. Your message is that Jason has got to kill or do violent things in order to get affection. What happened to 'Dad, gimme a hug'?
"He then instructs us to take out our pens and notebooks. We are instructed to write the letter that we wish our ideal father, the Golden Father, would write to us."
My ideal dad is my dad. Imagining him another way freaks me out. So much. It isn't funny.
At the end: "But I’m too tired to think about that. I haven’t slept in two days."
Brainwashing. For sure. Not sleeping means not thinking straight, which means more susceptibility, which means easily convinced, which means brainwashing. Or at least a watered-down version. Which is NOT any better.
" Included in the information packet is a page urging us to return for a second or third weekend. “Sometimes a price discount is available for men who are going through the JiM weekend a second time,” reads the flier."
...Yes, I am willing to pay money to be brainwashed. Shameless advertising. Fanfiction.net writers aren't as shameless. Twelve year old writers on fanfiction.net aren't that shameless. Disgust.
I don't even know what to say anymore. Why would anyone even start the thing in the first place? Misguided fools.
Hyperbole and a Half
I tried to follow that awesome blog. But then when I tried to add it on my dashboard, Google kindly told me that, sorry dooooooood, 50000's the max for the amount of awesomeness.
I counted the number of zeros for a while, and stared at it for a while, and sat there with my mouth open for a while.
No, seriously, fifty thou.
Then I stalked her blog until I reached the 'followers' box, which kindly told me that there were another 3000 people following her in addition to the fifty thou. Thank you very much. I clicked the button there on the box and got to follow her blog.
The end.
I counted the number of zeros for a while, and stared at it for a while, and sat there with my mouth open for a while.
No, seriously, fifty thou.
Then I stalked her blog until I reached the 'followers' box, which kindly told me that there were another 3000 people following her in addition to the fifty thou. Thank you very much. I clicked the button there on the box and got to follow her blog.
The end.
14 June 2011
Fucking A+
Basically - my family got a maid, she's from Myanmar, she doesn't speak English or Chinese well and...
She's been here a week and my mother's been pissed because she's unable to understand things. And she does things slower than my mother, who's double her age and has two kids to boot. (according to my mother, she's also got a shifty look in her eyes)
Tonight my family is out, and it's ten at night, and I'm at home with the maid (Unable to pronounce her name. Unable to spell it either. Also unable to remember it.) For no reason whatsoever, she came and stood behind me while I was online.
Note: If you stand behind me while I'm doing my stuff online, your chances of being beaten up by me will become significantly higher than before you decided to park your face over my shoulder. It does not matter if you are a bishounen.
Anyway, she remained there. For no reason whatsoever. For quite some time.
I'm not a bad person, and I don't think people are 'shifty' because my mother thinks so - honestly, I don't like my mother all that much - but the maid is making me paranoid. Fucking a, fucking a, I'm alone at home at night and I'm fucking paranoid.
Also note: the horror stories about maids chopping up kids and stuff doesn't help in any way.
But I don't stereotype. That much.
So I am trying very hard to stop myself from turning back to ensure that she does not in fact have a knife in her hands.
Fucking A+. Just the type of mindset to have when you're alone at home at night with a stranger whose name you don't know and wouldn't be able to pronounce even if you did.
Hey, what the hell. The above sentence just summed everything up.
She's been here a week and my mother's been pissed because she's unable to understand things. And she does things slower than my mother, who's double her age and has two kids to boot. (according to my mother, she's also got a shifty look in her eyes)
Tonight my family is out, and it's ten at night, and I'm at home with the maid (Unable to pronounce her name. Unable to spell it either. Also unable to remember it.) For no reason whatsoever, she came and stood behind me while I was online.
Note: If you stand behind me while I'm doing my stuff online, your chances of being beaten up by me will become significantly higher than before you decided to park your face over my shoulder. It does not matter if you are a bishounen.
Anyway, she remained there. For no reason whatsoever. For quite some time.
I'm not a bad person, and I don't think people are 'shifty' because my mother thinks so - honestly, I don't like my mother all that much - but the maid is making me paranoid. Fucking a, fucking a, I'm alone at home at night and I'm fucking paranoid.
Also note: the horror stories about maids chopping up kids and stuff doesn't help in any way.
But I don't stereotype. That much.
So I am trying very hard to stop myself from turning back to ensure that she does not in fact have a knife in her hands.
Fucking A+. Just the type of mindset to have when you're alone at home at night with a stranger whose name you don't know and wouldn't be able to pronounce even if you did.
Hey, what the hell. The above sentence just summed everything up.
13 June 2011
Sandara Park
WTF how is so... WTF. Dara is like, so pretty it hurts. Normally she's cute? Funny? Pretteh? Yes, She's my bias in 2NE1.
But here, she's just like, I am so pretteeeee hurhur *flips guys off*.
Actually I didn't recognize her at first. Yes, she was so pretty. She should forever have this hairstyle...
...I take that back. But I sounded really lez for a second there.
But she's so pretty.
12 June 2011
Katy Perry/Rebecca Black
Rebecca Black was trending on twitter again, so out of fear that something bad would happen, (like another song). I checked it out.
Katy sings it. SO. MUCH. BETTER. The tune - people say she's purposely singing it out of tune, but the way I'm seeing it, she's only improving it. She's cool. Katy Perry is cool. "Fun, fun, fun, fun," yes, Katy says, I'm counting your number of 'fun's. Either way it doesn't matter much, because she makes the song sound way better than Rebecca Black ever did - which is saying something because Rebecca's the original singer, and I always think the original singer makes the song sound better.
Yes, lyrics are still shit. Blame the fucking composer, but hey, Katy Perry made me like Friday. Just a bit more. Just enough to not make me want to kill something upon hearing the opening lines.
Here's another one that sounds better than Rebecca.
Ohohoho this one's about church, and God, and worship, which is something I think is goddamn fucking ridiculous - just sayin'. But this girl, who's younger than Rebecca Black (I think so, certainly looks like it) sings it better. Tho' it's still autotuned, still crappy because the song was basically made to be crappy, this girl sings it better.
..............................*SIGH*
Yes, lyrics are still shit. Blame the fucking composer, but hey, Katy Perry made me like Friday. Just a bit more. Just enough to not make me want to kill something upon hearing the opening lines.
Here's another one that sounds better than Rebecca.
Ohohoho this one's about church, and God, and worship, which is something I think is goddamn fucking ridiculous - just sayin'. But this girl, who's younger than Rebecca Black (I think so, certainly looks like it) sings it better. Tho' it's still autotuned, still crappy because the song was basically made to be crappy, this girl sings it better.
..............................*SIGH*
^^
I got pissed off at life in general so I went online and stared at almost-porn. Hurhur. no, not really. It's just Taemin dancing, but I feel all better now.
11 June 2011
This is Disturbing:
After staring blankly at nothing for quite a while, I realised that I like to collect things. Like music (thousand plus, quickly rising), pictures (three thousand plus, also quickly rising), and videos (... hundreds of MBs currently), among other things.
It's kind of disturbing.
Because my marapets account (abandoned a long time ago, tyvm) has one of almost every item stored in the attic.
And I have used to have an abnormally huge collection of stuffed toys when I was three. Or younger.
...My collection obsession goes back a long way, doesn't it.
It's kind of disturbing.
Because my marapets account (abandoned a long time ago, tyvm) has one of almost every item stored in the attic.
And I have used to have an abnormally huge collection of stuffed toys when I was three. Or younger.
...My collection obsession goes back a long way, doesn't it.
A /very slight/ Obsession with Death Note
After reading way too many Death Note fanfics for my own good, I realised that I've become an insomniac. With an addiction to chocolate bars.
Aside from a chronic inability to fall asleep before 2 or 3 in the morning, I have eaten two huge bars of chocolate and am currently carving for more.
Seriously, I lie in my bed for hours every night, thinking of nothing (or trying to) and with the lights off. Unfortunately, after one or two hours my patience runs out and I start looking at either yaoi or fanfiction. Which admittedly doesn't do much to help me sleep, but does a great job in keeping my mind occupied. Anyway, I keep stopping every few minutes to try and fall asleep again, hoping that I might have tired myself out just a tiny bit, and consistently failed to fall asleep. Until at least two in the morning.
Also very seriously, I have devoured two chocolate bars in an astonishing short period of time (read: half and hour or less) and... I want more. I want more chocolate, badly.
There's only one conclusion. Death note's characters' traits are... contagious.
Aside from a chronic inability to fall asleep before 2 or 3 in the morning, I have eaten two huge bars of chocolate and am currently carving for more.
Seriously, I lie in my bed for hours every night, thinking of nothing (or trying to) and with the lights off. Unfortunately, after one or two hours my patience runs out and I start looking at either yaoi or fanfiction. Which admittedly doesn't do much to help me sleep, but does a great job in keeping my mind occupied. Anyway, I keep stopping every few minutes to try and fall asleep again, hoping that I might have tired myself out just a tiny bit, and consistently failed to fall asleep. Until at least two in the morning.
Also very seriously, I have devoured two chocolate bars in an astonishing short period of time (read: half and hour or less) and... I want more. I want more chocolate, badly.
There's only one conclusion. Death note's characters' traits are... contagious.
9 June 2011
Type 'Hatsune Miu' into Youtube
And Youtube'll ask you if you really meant 'Hatsune Miku'.
Ahh...the awesomeness of Vocaloids.
Totally smashes Hatsune Miu and steps on her and then tosses her into the sewers.
Kind of personal, yes, but I felt very cheated when I discovered that she had nothing to do with Miku at all. I mean, I love Miku. *Evil glint*
Ahh...the awesomeness of Vocaloids.
Totally smashes Hatsune Miu and steps on her and then tosses her into the sewers.
Kind of personal, yes, but I felt very cheated when I discovered that she had nothing to do with Miku at all. I mean, I love Miku. *Evil glint*
Animefushigi...?
So I was happily watching Zombie-Loan 11, and was going to move on to the OVA when animefushigi stopped. Working.
IDK, IDC much but I'm just sad that my anime is apparently off for a while, unless I use others sites and I don't like other sites because they're not as cool GDI.
The Burmese maid arrived... she's washing the dishes, and I have no idea how to talk to her. It's so awkward when there's someone else you don't know at all sleeping in your house... Also because I can't walk around in my underwear now.
I like walking around all day in my underwear, godammit.
Aish, anyway, looks like I have to miss out on Pandora Hearts for a while.
IDK, IDC much but I'm just sad that my anime is apparently off for a while, unless I use others sites and I don't like other sites because they're not as cool GDI.
The Burmese maid arrived... she's washing the dishes, and I have no idea how to talk to her. It's so awkward when there's someone else you don't know at all sleeping in your house... Also because I can't walk around in my underwear now.
I like walking around all day in my underwear, godammit.
Aish, anyway, looks like I have to miss out on Pandora Hearts for a while.
8 June 2011
Kuroshitsuji Yaoi!
Lol lol, I started dreaming while reading a cross dressing book... As in, the girl cuts off her hair and pretends to be a boy. So a handsome man kisses her in one scene, and I was just imagining how awesome it would be if she actually was a boy. Due to my fixation with yaoi, hehehe.
Then I started thinking about Kuroshitsuji.
I read a fanfic - one that has no actual yaoi except for one oral, but it managed to hold at fifteen chapters and wasn't boring. At all. Even though there wasn't yaoi. Lol.
Anyway, then I started thinking about Kuroshitsuji and fic ideas came! Plot bunnies! Dust bunnies! Real bunnies!
I just wrote about five pages in an hour for the new plot bunny...unfortunately, because I am a huge procrastinator and so I rarely finish any stories I start, unless it's a oneshot. But moving on. This fic ... Is awesome in my mind, and it just so happens to be the holidays, so maybe I'll write more...soon...
It's late at night and it's raining heavily. Because I like windows, I opened the windows. And because I like rain, rain is now blowing into my face through the window.
Night. I shall post the links to the two completely insanely perfect fanfics I've read lately tomorrow, because I'm tired now. Well, they're perfect, but we all need a bit of beta-ing...
...typos and grammatical mistakes spoiled the fics a little... T_T
Then I started thinking about Kuroshitsuji.
I read a fanfic - one that has no actual yaoi except for one oral, but it managed to hold at fifteen chapters and wasn't boring. At all. Even though there wasn't yaoi. Lol.
Anyway, then I started thinking about Kuroshitsuji and fic ideas came! Plot bunnies! Dust bunnies! Real bunnies!
I just wrote about five pages in an hour for the new plot bunny...unfortunately, because I am a huge procrastinator and so I rarely finish any stories I start, unless it's a oneshot. But moving on. This fic ... Is awesome in my mind, and it just so happens to be the holidays, so maybe I'll write more...soon...
It's late at night and it's raining heavily. Because I like windows, I opened the windows. And because I like rain, rain is now blowing into my face through the window.
Night. I shall post the links to the two completely insanely perfect fanfics I've read lately tomorrow, because I'm tired now. Well, they're perfect, but we all need a bit of beta-ing...
...typos and grammatical mistakes spoiled the fics a little... T_T
7 June 2011
KFC
I'm now enjoying a mashed potato... or at least that's what KFC claims it to be, and it tastes like it, so I'll assume that it is mashed potatoes and not some synthesized crap, which is actually what 7-eleven sells but tastes nice too...
I'm mourning the loss of my spicy chicken. It appears that KFC made its 'spicy' chicken less spicy, so much more less spicy that it tastes exactly like the non-spicy chicken, except more crunchy.
I've never been able to figure out why it's less crunchy...
Anyway, mourning my chicken's loss of spiciness.
/EDIT:/ IT MUST BE A CONSPIRACY.
I'm mourning the loss of my spicy chicken. It appears that KFC made its 'spicy' chicken less spicy, so much more less spicy that it tastes exactly like the non-spicy chicken, except more crunchy.
I've never been able to figure out why it's less crunchy...
Anyway, mourning my chicken's loss of spiciness.
/EDIT:/ IT MUST BE A CONSPIRACY.
3 June 2011
I Swear I'm Normal
But lately, strange things happen... hurhurhur coincidences, coincidences. When my music player's set to random shuffle, I keep predicting the next song that comes up. And just today, while I was looking through my Tumblr at home (while parents were creepin' about) I had a feeling that the next pic was just gonna be hardcore yaoi. I stopped scrolling. Cautiously peeked at the picture.
Yaoi.
Coincidences, hurhurhur. I listen to music too much, and I now have a built-in yaoi sensor as a result of too much yaoi in my brain.
Hurhurhur.
In other news, the two very life-like dolls beside the computer are starting to creep me out. A lot.
I'm trying not to look.
Yaoi.
Coincidences, hurhurhur. I listen to music too much, and I now have a built-in yaoi sensor as a result of too much yaoi in my brain.
Hurhurhur.
In other news, the two very life-like dolls beside the computer are starting to creep me out. A lot.
I'm trying not to look.
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